"David encouraged and strengthened himself in the Lord his God." 1 Samuel 30:6 (Amplified Bible)
Today was too weird!! Did NOT like it at all!! I will Go so far to say the first 3 miles (I've never said this) I hated!! I did!! I think it was a combination of alot of things. It was awful...I was getting so mad. I did feel some relief on the 4th mile and actually kicked somethings in gear and ran. I started wheezing which I am proud of cuz it showed I was doing something but had to run and get water then I sat for a minute and I told Kailah, "you know it would be annoying to push past 3 miles and get some victory over #4 to stop here when I wanted to do 5" So I did one last mile which came to 5 but MAN! I had to fight to get to it! Do you know when I did #5 it was easy! How odd.
You know what else helped me get through? I feel very emotional about this, this is a first. I just felt very strong in my spirit almost like an internal audible sound, "David encouraged himself in the Lord" At that point I started speaking out loud so I could hear my own voice (for the first 3 miles) Toni, you can do this. Toni, you are doing great. Toni, you are not quitting, Good Job Toni, Keep going Toni and then I would say out loud again and again, Jesus is King, help me....I kept thinking of all these quotes about pushing through....that's how bad it was. I believe that when I encouraged myself in the Lord I had the strength to push forward cuz God knows I wanted to quit.